every day I try to realize how lucky I am
every day I try to believe that all these things are for real
god! why? Do I deserve it?
some people say it's not about deserve it
it's about, you know
things just happen
some people say I deserve it
but I think... ok I have this, and I didn't made nothing for it
so, I don't deserve it
but I have to enjoy it
I'm only afraid of get other negative things because I got this all without fight
but it's not my fault!
I have it!
so, if I have it now, I will make everything to deserve it
or, should I just enjoy the lucky I had?
and lucky lives forever?
god I hope you will not punish me to have all these things without fighting, I didn't ask for. but I'm very grateful to my dad and mom who provide me all these things.

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